Ugh. Seeing how much my favorite 1st year kid struggles really breaks my heart. He doesn’t understand a word of English after 6 months (and I’m guessing other subjects also present a problem for him) but he tries so hard. Just sits there in class looking so confused and practically pulling his hair out trying to understand. Even so he’s so funny and friendly with me. We have a little game where we fake ‘punch’ each other or throw ‘gun fingers’ at each other but when other teachers see they tell him off, despite me saying it was just a game :(( He’s always forgetting his chopsticks and he gets ripped a new one for that too. Other kids can see he’s struggling in class but none of them help him and it doesn’t look like he has any friends to speak of. I guess I’m just PMSing really hard this week but I feel like crying after seeing him in class today :( Someone be nice to him :((
45 minutes til go time. よし！
Noticed a funny thing these past few weeks. Since taking over my JTE’s classes solo while she’s been away on sick leave all the other teachers are making much more of an effort to talk to me. I mean they were perfectly cordial before, but now they actually engage me in conversation beyond “good morning”. Geez if I’d known all it would take to gain the acceptance of my Japanese colleagues would be to take on another teacher’s workload on top of my own and push myself to the point where I broke down and slept for two whole days when the weekend finally rolled around I would have… Said ‘screw it’ and made peace with my outsider status. This country, man. -.-
It’s 11:15 and I can hear my neighbor snoring in bed next door over the sound of the typhoon rain outside. Why.
I get so irrationally grumpy about working the weekend even though we get time off in lieu and most of the time it’s not even work and can be pretty fun messing around with the students. Why am I so grumpy? Seriously though screw working on a Saturday and Sunday rrrrr grumble grumble rabble rabble.